1 00:00:11,981 --> 00:00:13,781 SARAH: Out of the blue, 2 00:00:13,781 --> 00:00:15,421 this handsome, gorgeous man appeared. 3 00:00:15,421 --> 00:00:17,221 INTERVIEWER: You're living the fairy tale. 4 00:00:17,221 --> 00:00:19,221 TOMMY: To the happy couple. Cheers. 5 00:00:19,221 --> 00:00:21,981 Well, you know our Tommy. Can't say no to a pretty face. 6 00:00:21,981 --> 00:00:24,101 Unless they're trying to tie him down. 7 00:00:24,101 --> 00:00:26,261 JANE: Get out of the strip club and call me back. 8 00:00:26,261 --> 00:00:29,181 You can't just ignore me, Tommy! It's not funny. Argh! 9 00:00:29,181 --> 00:00:31,181 SIMON: You said certain things happened 10 00:00:31,181 --> 00:00:33,861 in your childhood that your parents didn't want to know about. 11 00:00:33,861 --> 00:00:35,901 Do you feel that's what's happening here? 12 00:00:35,901 --> 00:00:37,581 I have tried to kill myself in the past. 13 00:00:37,581 --> 00:00:39,141 I just need to know you're not using me. 14 00:00:39,141 --> 00:00:40,181 I wouldn't do that. 15 00:00:40,181 --> 00:00:43,021 Things seem to be going much better between the two of you. 16 00:00:43,021 --> 00:00:45,421 I think he may be planning to propose when we're in France. 17 00:00:45,421 --> 00:00:47,301 Mum said you're buying a place in the Cotswolds? 18 00:00:47,301 --> 00:00:49,581 He's always had an excellent head for business. 19 00:00:49,581 --> 00:00:51,341 Sorry, so the cottage is for your mother? 20 00:00:51,341 --> 00:00:53,621 Loony Bin Jane. I'll just jump in the river, shall I? 21 00:00:53,621 --> 00:00:56,301 That'll solve all your problems, won't it, Tommy? You're insane. 22 00:00:56,301 --> 00:00:58,421 If we were married, you wouldn't treat me like this. 23 00:00:58,421 --> 00:01:00,301 But you'd rather just keep stringing me along 24 00:01:00,301 --> 00:01:01,901 as long as Tommy gets what he wants! 25 00:01:01,901 --> 00:01:03,861 You are sick, do you know that? 26 00:01:03,861 --> 00:01:06,541 Shut up! Will you SHUT UP?! 27 00:01:06,541 --> 00:01:08,461 There's something deeply wrong with you. 28 00:01:08,461 --> 00:01:10,101 'What is it you want the police to do?' 29 00:01:10,101 --> 00:01:12,141 I would like someone to stop us hurting each other. 30 00:01:12,141 --> 00:01:14,821 If you don't have somebody here soon, somebody is. 31 00:01:14,821 --> 00:01:16,821 We're three days into a national manhunt 32 00:01:16,821 --> 00:01:18,461 and still no closer to bringing her in. 33 00:01:18,461 --> 00:01:20,661 SMART: 'If she's taking risks, maybe she intends 34 00:01:20,661 --> 00:01:23,141 'to be dead before we can get to her.' 35 00:01:27,541 --> 00:01:30,181 BIRDSONG 36 00:01:38,421 --> 00:01:40,101 They found the car. 37 00:01:40,101 --> 00:01:42,341 Local bobby spotted the licence plate from the road. 38 00:01:42,341 --> 00:01:43,581 Is she in it? 39 00:01:43,581 --> 00:01:44,901 We don't know yet. 40 00:01:44,901 --> 00:01:46,781 Parked in a lay-by. No signs of movement. 41 00:01:46,781 --> 00:01:49,501 He's asking if he should approach? 42 00:01:49,501 --> 00:01:51,901 Yeah. Tell him yes, but with caution. 43 00:02:02,101 --> 00:02:03,221 Jane? 44 00:02:05,301 --> 00:02:06,581 Jane Andrews? 45 00:02:09,501 --> 00:02:11,701 MUFFLED: Are you OK? Can you open this door? 46 00:02:13,621 --> 00:02:15,901 Jane? KNOCKING 47 00:02:35,941 --> 00:02:38,061 STEADY BEEP 48 00:02:41,541 --> 00:02:43,301 DOUGLAS CLEARS THROAT 49 00:02:43,301 --> 00:02:46,141 I'm Detective Chief Inspector Keith Douglas, 50 00:02:46,141 --> 00:02:48,421 attached to the Serious Crime Group. 51 00:02:48,421 --> 00:02:50,141 The other officer is... 52 00:02:50,141 --> 00:02:51,821 Detective Sergeant Kay Smart, 53 00:02:51,821 --> 00:02:54,261 also attached to the Serious Crime Group. 54 00:02:54,261 --> 00:02:57,901 We are in the interview room at Bloomsbury Police Station, 55 00:02:57,901 --> 00:02:59,181 and I am interviewing... 56 00:02:59,181 --> 00:03:01,101 Please could you state your full name? 57 00:03:03,581 --> 00:03:05,501 Jane Dawn Elizabeth Andrews. 58 00:03:10,861 --> 00:03:13,941 Whatever happened between them, it couldn't have been deliberate. 59 00:03:13,941 --> 00:03:17,181 I mean, Janey can't have been in her right mind. 60 00:03:17,181 --> 00:03:18,501 MAN: Cut there. 61 00:03:18,501 --> 00:03:20,341 Just one moment, Francesca. Was that not... 62 00:03:20,341 --> 00:03:23,021 That was great. We just need to check your mic for sound. 63 00:03:23,021 --> 00:03:25,141 Oh, OK. Yeah, we're all good. 64 00:03:25,141 --> 00:03:27,581 So, if you can go back to before Tommy's death, 65 00:03:27,581 --> 00:03:30,381 did you ever think he might be in danger? 66 00:03:30,381 --> 00:03:31,581 SHE SIGHS 67 00:03:33,221 --> 00:03:34,821 You have to remember... 68 00:03:35,981 --> 00:03:38,181 ..she really did love him. 69 00:03:38,181 --> 00:03:42,061 She was a woman scorned, and she took her revenge. 70 00:03:42,061 --> 00:03:44,581 I think she was telling the truth. 71 00:03:44,581 --> 00:03:47,821 She was prepared to say anything to save her skin. 72 00:03:49,381 --> 00:03:53,181 You've told us that after Thomas Cressman's call 73 00:03:53,181 --> 00:03:56,741 to the emergency services, the arguments continued, 74 00:03:56,741 --> 00:04:00,301 and then you decided to leave the house. 75 00:04:01,621 --> 00:04:03,941 You drove around for a while, 76 00:04:03,941 --> 00:04:07,541 and, following a phone conversation with Mr Cressman, 77 00:04:07,541 --> 00:04:09,101 you decided to return. 78 00:04:09,101 --> 00:04:10,781 Is that right? 79 00:04:10,781 --> 00:04:12,101 Yes. 80 00:04:13,701 --> 00:04:15,661 He said to come home, so I did. 81 00:04:15,661 --> 00:04:18,021 And when you got back, there was another big row, 82 00:04:18,021 --> 00:04:19,501 and you went up to bed. 83 00:04:21,381 --> 00:04:22,581 Yes. 84 00:04:24,061 --> 00:04:25,781 And I tried to go to sleep. 85 00:04:27,741 --> 00:04:31,781 But he curled up next to me and said... 86 00:04:34,581 --> 00:04:36,861 .."Oh, come on. 87 00:04:36,861 --> 00:04:39,821 "I want to have sex with you. You know you like it." 88 00:04:41,341 --> 00:04:43,221 And then he... 89 00:04:43,221 --> 00:04:45,061 sort of grabbed me... 90 00:04:46,821 --> 00:04:49,621 ..and, well, I was, I was frightened, so I went down... 91 00:04:51,421 --> 00:04:53,941 ..and I got the cricket bat. 92 00:04:55,621 --> 00:04:57,381 Just to place next to the bed. 93 00:04:58,981 --> 00:05:00,261 Protect myself. 94 00:05:03,461 --> 00:05:05,821 But then Tommy woke up, and he... 95 00:05:05,821 --> 00:05:08,221 was going on about how horrible I was. 96 00:05:09,821 --> 00:05:11,701 And he kneed me in the back. 97 00:05:13,421 --> 00:05:14,461 And... 98 00:05:16,741 --> 00:05:18,221 I should've just left. 99 00:05:20,301 --> 00:05:22,301 But I went down. 100 00:05:22,301 --> 00:05:25,141 And I saw... I saw the knife... 101 00:05:26,741 --> 00:05:28,421 ..on the draining board. 102 00:05:29,701 --> 00:05:32,581 I thought if he did anything, I-I'd just say... 103 00:05:32,581 --> 00:05:35,061 "Look, I've got a knife. 104 00:05:35,061 --> 00:05:36,661 "Don't touch me." 105 00:05:38,301 --> 00:05:40,341 And then, eventually, I went to sleep. 106 00:05:44,221 --> 00:05:45,981 And he just started hitting me. 107 00:05:47,861 --> 00:05:50,901 So I picked up the bat, and I hit him, 108 00:05:50,901 --> 00:05:54,141 and he was lashing out at me, and he was pulling my hair out. 109 00:05:54,141 --> 00:05:56,221 So I grabbed the knife. 110 00:05:56,221 --> 00:05:59,101 And he just came at me, and I... I didn't know what was happening. 111 00:05:59,101 --> 00:06:02,381 I just remember him falling down, so I ran out of the room. 112 00:06:02,381 --> 00:06:05,101 And then I panicked, so I got in my car, and I just... 113 00:06:06,541 --> 00:06:08,621 ..I just drove and drove and drove. 114 00:06:10,101 --> 00:06:11,581 SHE SNIFFLES 115 00:06:15,141 --> 00:06:18,261 So, after leaving the house, 116 00:06:18,261 --> 00:06:21,621 you made a number of calls and sent a number of text messages... 117 00:06:23,261 --> 00:06:26,381 ..where you seemed unaware of what happened to Mr Cressman. 118 00:06:26,381 --> 00:06:28,381 Were you trying to convince your friends 119 00:06:28,381 --> 00:06:30,901 that his death was nothing to do with you? 120 00:06:30,901 --> 00:06:32,381 No, I just... 121 00:06:40,941 --> 00:06:42,581 I didn't know he was dead. 122 00:06:45,541 --> 00:06:48,661 'Denying it, claiming it was an accident. 123 00:06:48,661 --> 00:06:51,541 'Her story was all over the place from the start.' 124 00:06:51,541 --> 00:06:54,341 Well, if in doubt, play the self-defence card. 125 00:06:54,341 --> 00:06:57,581 But we had what we needed, so we charged her with murder. 126 00:06:57,581 --> 00:07:00,781 The only surprise was that she got bail. 127 00:07:06,741 --> 00:07:07,821 Janey? 128 00:07:07,821 --> 00:07:09,981 Brought you a cup of tea, love. 129 00:07:09,981 --> 00:07:11,221 Thanks, Mum. 130 00:07:12,781 --> 00:07:15,261 You're settling in, then. That's good. 131 00:07:18,141 --> 00:07:19,501 That, erm... 132 00:07:21,221 --> 00:07:23,301 That lady solicitor called. 133 00:07:25,621 --> 00:07:28,421 She wants you to ring her back about a meeting next week. 134 00:07:29,981 --> 00:07:31,381 OK. 135 00:07:31,381 --> 00:07:34,421 Does that mean you have to go back down to London? 136 00:07:34,421 --> 00:07:36,501 I guess so. 137 00:07:36,501 --> 00:07:39,221 They said they'd sort somewhere for me to stay. 138 00:07:43,461 --> 00:07:45,501 Where did Dad put my sewing machine? 139 00:07:45,501 --> 00:07:47,501 Ah, it's on the landing. 140 00:07:49,541 --> 00:07:54,021 She sounded very on the ball, the solicitor. 141 00:07:55,621 --> 00:07:58,501 I'm sure she'll be able to sort things out. 142 00:07:58,501 --> 00:08:02,181 That's not really how it works, Mum. She can't just "sort it out". 143 00:08:05,341 --> 00:08:07,821 But it wasn't your fault, was it? 144 00:08:07,821 --> 00:08:11,621 I mean, it's like you say, it was an accident. 145 00:08:11,621 --> 00:08:14,101 You didn't mean for it to happen. 146 00:08:14,101 --> 00:08:15,741 No, of course not. 147 00:08:17,421 --> 00:08:20,581 Do we still have that gingham cotton that I bought? 148 00:08:20,581 --> 00:08:22,061 The pale blue one? 149 00:08:23,821 --> 00:08:26,061 I don't know. It might be in the airing cupboard. 150 00:08:29,181 --> 00:08:30,621 HE KNOCKS 151 00:08:30,621 --> 00:08:31,981 All right, Jane, love? 152 00:08:31,981 --> 00:08:33,781 This just came for you. 153 00:08:43,461 --> 00:08:46,741 'I told her you'd be welcome to stay with us during the trial.' 154 00:08:46,741 --> 00:08:50,381 Especially after reading such diabolical things in the papers. 155 00:08:51,701 --> 00:08:54,301 I've been trying not to look. Of course. 156 00:08:54,301 --> 00:08:57,141 I knew there had to be more to it. 157 00:08:57,141 --> 00:09:00,541 All this talk of premeditated murder - 158 00:09:00,541 --> 00:09:02,701 it simply didn't ring true. 159 00:09:02,701 --> 00:09:04,101 It's not. 160 00:09:06,141 --> 00:09:07,461 I loved Tommy. 161 00:09:10,061 --> 00:09:11,821 I never meant to hurt him. 162 00:09:13,861 --> 00:09:15,661 That's what I told the police. 163 00:09:16,861 --> 00:09:19,101 I was just trying to get away from him. 164 00:09:19,101 --> 00:09:21,301 I had no idea he was badly hurt. 165 00:09:24,261 --> 00:09:26,821 I thought I'd just given him a scratch. 166 00:09:26,821 --> 00:09:28,101 A scratch? 167 00:09:29,381 --> 00:09:31,781 Oh, you poor thing. 168 00:09:34,661 --> 00:09:37,021 And did the Duchess really contact you? 169 00:09:37,021 --> 00:09:38,701 While you were on the run? 170 00:09:38,701 --> 00:09:40,301 Yes. 171 00:09:40,301 --> 00:09:42,181 Yes, she did. 172 00:09:42,181 --> 00:09:44,181 Well, that's quite something. 173 00:09:44,181 --> 00:09:46,461 Clearly, she still cares about you. 174 00:09:46,461 --> 00:09:47,701 I know. 175 00:09:49,421 --> 00:09:52,501 I'm making matching gingham dresses for Beatrice and Eugenie. 176 00:09:53,661 --> 00:09:55,541 Are you? As a thank-you. 177 00:09:57,901 --> 00:09:59,341 How sweet. 178 00:10:28,741 --> 00:10:31,461 Coffee, darling? Please. 179 00:10:33,461 --> 00:10:35,941 Thank you so much for this. 180 00:10:35,941 --> 00:10:38,661 I really appreciate you both letting me stay. 181 00:10:38,661 --> 00:10:40,341 Well, Roger and I are happy to help. 182 00:10:46,581 --> 00:10:48,381 Pay no attention. 183 00:10:48,381 --> 00:10:51,701 At the end of the day, it doesn't matter what rubbish they print. 184 00:10:51,701 --> 00:10:53,021 No, you're right. 185 00:10:53,021 --> 00:10:56,461 You just tell the truth, and it'll all come out in the wash. 186 00:10:56,461 --> 00:10:59,661 I've always had the utmost faith in British justice. 187 00:11:24,301 --> 00:11:26,301 REPORTERS CLAMOUR 188 00:11:26,301 --> 00:11:28,461 Do you expect to get away with murder, do you, Jane? 189 00:11:31,861 --> 00:11:34,701 'Everyone had made up their minds - the press, the public.' 190 00:11:34,701 --> 00:11:37,141 They cast her as this "bunny boiler". 191 00:11:39,581 --> 00:11:44,701 'There she was on every front page, just like when she was with Fergie.' 192 00:11:44,701 --> 00:11:46,501 I'm sure she was lapping it up. 193 00:11:51,021 --> 00:11:52,741 'Head to toe in black.' 194 00:11:52,741 --> 00:11:56,421 Like she was some sort of grieving widow. 195 00:11:56,421 --> 00:11:58,541 I mean, seriously? 196 00:12:06,701 --> 00:12:08,901 Poor thing must've been terrified. 197 00:12:15,501 --> 00:12:17,181 There is no doubt 198 00:12:17,181 --> 00:12:21,021 as to the identity of Thomas Cressman's killer. 199 00:12:21,021 --> 00:12:24,981 Jane Andrews wielded the bat 200 00:12:24,981 --> 00:12:27,741 and held the knife. 201 00:12:27,741 --> 00:12:30,301 The real question we must consider 202 00:12:30,301 --> 00:12:32,701 is why she committed these violent acts. 203 00:12:32,701 --> 00:12:35,301 And on this occasion, we need not look far for motive, 204 00:12:35,301 --> 00:12:37,461 for, as you will see, hers was the classic one 205 00:12:37,461 --> 00:12:40,141 of the jilted and betrayed lover. 206 00:12:40,141 --> 00:12:42,941 Having learnt that Mr Cressman no longer intended to marry her, 207 00:12:42,941 --> 00:12:45,821 she returned to that house with one thought in mind. 208 00:12:46,901 --> 00:12:48,541 Namely... 209 00:12:48,541 --> 00:12:51,901 to take her revenge by ending his life. 210 00:12:52,981 --> 00:12:55,781 Now, the defence will try and persuade you 211 00:12:55,781 --> 00:12:58,301 that Miss Andrews was acting in self-defence, 212 00:12:58,301 --> 00:13:00,501 that she was afraid for her own safety. 213 00:13:00,501 --> 00:13:03,541 And in order to support this, 214 00:13:03,541 --> 00:13:06,581 they will paint a picture of the deceased 215 00:13:06,581 --> 00:13:09,741 that bears no relation to the truth. 216 00:13:11,701 --> 00:13:16,621 Indeed, the evidence will show you that it was, in fact, Jane herself 217 00:13:16,621 --> 00:13:19,421 who was the controlling and, ultimately, violent partner 218 00:13:19,421 --> 00:13:20,781 in this relationship, 219 00:13:20,781 --> 00:13:23,781 a relationship that was brutally ended 220 00:13:23,781 --> 00:13:29,261 by a cold-blooded, premeditated murder. 221 00:13:29,261 --> 00:13:32,101 MURMURS FROM GALLERY 222 00:13:43,341 --> 00:13:49,861 The, erm, body of the deceased was in a very awkward position, 223 00:13:49,861 --> 00:13:52,341 wedged between the bed and the wall. 224 00:13:52,341 --> 00:13:56,021 We could see that he'd been stabbed in the chest, and his hands were... 225 00:13:57,061 --> 00:13:58,261 ..like this. 226 00:13:58,261 --> 00:14:00,861 Er, almost as if he was trying to... 227 00:14:00,861 --> 00:14:04,501 cover the wound, or extract the knife from his body. 228 00:14:04,501 --> 00:14:07,421 And can you describe the knife that you found at the scene? 229 00:14:07,421 --> 00:14:10,261 It was a kitchen knife with an eight-inch blade, 230 00:14:10,261 --> 00:14:13,181 and it had been taken from the block in the kitchen. 231 00:14:13,181 --> 00:14:16,981 Well, it appeared that Mr Cressman had also been hit over the head 232 00:14:16,981 --> 00:14:20,261 with a cricket bat and stunned, prior to being stabbed. 233 00:14:20,261 --> 00:14:23,101 Was there any sign that Mr Cressman 234 00:14:23,101 --> 00:14:26,661 had attempted to defend himself against the attack? 235 00:14:26,661 --> 00:14:27,901 No, there was not. 236 00:14:27,901 --> 00:14:31,181 No defensive wounds were found on his body. 237 00:14:31,181 --> 00:14:32,581 No defensive wounds, 238 00:14:32,581 --> 00:14:35,901 suggesting that Tommy was defenceless when the attack came. 239 00:14:42,821 --> 00:14:44,101 Well... 240 00:14:44,101 --> 00:14:46,741 I'm sure things will go better this afternoon. 241 00:14:49,541 --> 00:14:50,901 I'm sure they will. 242 00:14:59,701 --> 00:15:02,461 'Seeing her in court was pretty unpleasant, as you can imagine.' 243 00:15:03,781 --> 00:15:06,861 But someone needed to speak for Tommy. 244 00:15:06,861 --> 00:15:12,341 What did you make of Jane Andrews when she and Tom first began dating? 245 00:15:13,381 --> 00:15:17,101 I was aware of who she was and where she'd worked, 246 00:15:17,101 --> 00:15:20,141 and I think that had maybe impressed Tom a bit. 247 00:15:20,141 --> 00:15:22,461 And I'm sure she was attracted to him. 248 00:15:22,461 --> 00:15:26,141 But I think, ultimately, she was very attracted to his lifestyle. 249 00:15:26,141 --> 00:15:29,901 Did you have any misgivings about the relationship? 250 00:15:31,341 --> 00:15:34,141 It was kind of full-on from the start. 251 00:15:34,141 --> 00:15:37,421 Jane became increasingly possessive. 252 00:15:37,421 --> 00:15:39,821 She basically gave him no space. 253 00:15:39,821 --> 00:15:43,781 And how did Tommy respond when faced with this kind of behaviour? 254 00:15:43,781 --> 00:15:46,741 Erm, Tommy was an incredibly gentle kind of guy. 255 00:15:49,421 --> 00:15:51,261 Plus, he was worried about what she would do. 256 00:15:51,261 --> 00:15:53,781 MURMURS FROM GALLERY 257 00:16:03,141 --> 00:16:05,821 I could've done that for you. It's fine, Mum. It's done now. 258 00:16:11,301 --> 00:16:13,621 This house is something else. 259 00:16:15,541 --> 00:16:17,941 You'll have to buy Aleksandra a present to say thank you 260 00:16:17,941 --> 00:16:19,061 when all this is... 261 00:16:20,581 --> 00:16:23,861 ..you know. I shall when I get a chance. 262 00:16:25,061 --> 00:16:26,981 Everything's gonna be all right, you'll see. 263 00:16:28,061 --> 00:16:32,581 And tomorrow, you'll tell your side of the story. 264 00:16:35,221 --> 00:16:36,741 Put things straight. 265 00:16:41,941 --> 00:16:46,381 Mum, tomorrow, there's going to be things... you won't want to hear. 266 00:16:48,301 --> 00:16:49,741 Right. 267 00:16:51,741 --> 00:16:54,261 Things that happened to me when I was young. 268 00:16:54,261 --> 00:16:55,741 Oh, Jane, I... 269 00:16:55,741 --> 00:16:58,061 So if you'd rather not be there, you and Dad... 270 00:17:03,021 --> 00:17:04,141 No. 271 00:17:05,541 --> 00:17:07,381 No, we'll be there. 272 00:17:10,141 --> 00:17:11,421 You just... 273 00:17:12,941 --> 00:17:14,701 You say what you have to. 274 00:17:48,061 --> 00:17:49,821 Miss Andrews. 275 00:17:50,781 --> 00:17:54,181 Before dealing with the events of that night, 276 00:17:54,181 --> 00:17:57,901 I want to deal briefly with your medical history. 277 00:17:58,861 --> 00:18:00,981 In the spring of 1999, 278 00:18:00,981 --> 00:18:05,181 did you undergo a few sessions with a private psychotherapist? 279 00:18:05,181 --> 00:18:07,221 Yes, I did. 280 00:18:07,221 --> 00:18:08,981 Tom arranged them for me. 281 00:18:08,981 --> 00:18:13,381 And what was the particular focus of the psychotherapy? 282 00:18:15,901 --> 00:18:18,101 To deal with my abuse as a child. 283 00:18:22,621 --> 00:18:25,781 And the abuse to which you refer, 284 00:18:25,781 --> 00:18:27,821 was it sexual abuse? 285 00:18:27,821 --> 00:18:29,861 Yes. MURMURS FROM GALLERY 286 00:18:29,861 --> 00:18:33,821 At about what age, so far as you were concerned? 287 00:18:37,981 --> 00:18:40,461 About eight years old. 288 00:18:40,461 --> 00:18:44,741 Am I right in saying you do not wish to say who was involved in that? 289 00:18:44,741 --> 00:18:45,781 That is correct. 290 00:18:45,781 --> 00:18:49,861 But am I right that we are not talking about parental abuse? 291 00:18:49,861 --> 00:18:51,621 That's right, yes. 292 00:18:51,621 --> 00:18:54,821 So, during your relationship with Thomas Cressman, 293 00:18:54,821 --> 00:18:58,501 you were still dealing with the effects of that abuse. 294 00:18:58,501 --> 00:19:00,781 This left you with a heightened perception of threat. 295 00:19:00,781 --> 00:19:01,861 Is that right? 296 00:19:01,861 --> 00:19:03,021 Yes. 297 00:19:03,021 --> 00:19:05,381 And in a high-stress situation, 298 00:19:05,381 --> 00:19:08,701 you would find yourself less able to make rational judgements, 299 00:19:08,701 --> 00:19:10,701 instead, finding yourself in a... 300 00:19:10,701 --> 00:19:14,781 a sort of "grey mist" of helplessness. 301 00:19:14,781 --> 00:19:15,821 Is that right? 302 00:19:16,741 --> 00:19:17,941 Yes, that's true. 303 00:19:18,901 --> 00:19:23,421 Can you now tell me about your relationship with Mr Cressman? 304 00:19:23,421 --> 00:19:26,421 Tommy and I were together for nearly two years. 305 00:19:26,421 --> 00:19:28,461 I was devoted to him. 306 00:19:29,901 --> 00:19:33,421 But, in terms of your sex life, 307 00:19:33,421 --> 00:19:36,261 would it be correct to say that you were... 308 00:19:36,261 --> 00:19:39,701 relatively innocent and straight-laced, sexually, 309 00:19:39,701 --> 00:19:43,261 whereas Thomas was relatively adventurous? 310 00:19:43,261 --> 00:19:45,581 Yes, that's true. 311 00:19:45,581 --> 00:19:47,941 In what ways, Miss Andrews, 312 00:19:47,941 --> 00:19:51,461 was Thomas "relatively adventurous", so far as you were concerned? 313 00:19:53,941 --> 00:19:56,101 He would want to have anal sex with me. 314 00:19:56,101 --> 00:19:59,301 MURMURS FROM GALLERY 315 00:19:59,301 --> 00:20:04,101 And he wanted me to dress up in kinky clothing. 316 00:20:04,101 --> 00:20:08,141 You also discovered sexually explicit emails 317 00:20:08,141 --> 00:20:10,461 on Mr Cressman's computer, did you not? 318 00:20:13,501 --> 00:20:16,101 Did you take these to imply 319 00:20:16,101 --> 00:20:19,301 that Mr Cressman was no longer committed to your relationship? 320 00:20:19,301 --> 00:20:22,901 What was his attitude to your future together? 321 00:20:22,901 --> 00:20:24,341 He was committed. 322 00:20:28,821 --> 00:20:30,581 But he had periods of... 323 00:20:32,061 --> 00:20:34,141 ..confusing moments on his part... 324 00:20:36,941 --> 00:20:39,061 ..where he would say that he needed space. 325 00:20:39,061 --> 00:20:41,141 And this caused rows between you? 326 00:20:41,141 --> 00:20:42,181 Yes. 327 00:20:43,661 --> 00:20:47,021 Because I would... push him to find out... 328 00:20:48,501 --> 00:20:50,541 ..where our future was going. 329 00:20:50,541 --> 00:20:53,821 And are we talking merely about rows where people shout at each other, 330 00:20:53,821 --> 00:20:56,861 or was there, on occasion, more than that? 331 00:20:56,861 --> 00:20:58,341 Yes. 332 00:20:58,341 --> 00:21:00,861 In the sense that...? 333 00:21:03,021 --> 00:21:04,221 That he hit me. 334 00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:07,301 And, on another occasion when we were arguing, 335 00:21:07,301 --> 00:21:08,741 he pushed me down the stairs. 336 00:21:08,741 --> 00:21:10,501 GASPS, MURMURS 337 00:21:13,981 --> 00:21:15,621 Well, we'd been warned 338 00:21:15,621 --> 00:21:17,941 that things were probably gonna get pretty nasty. 339 00:21:17,941 --> 00:21:19,621 And, er, so it began. 340 00:21:20,581 --> 00:21:24,101 Well, now we come to the rows between yourself and Tom 341 00:21:24,101 --> 00:21:26,541 on Saturday the 16th of September, last year. 342 00:21:28,741 --> 00:21:29,901 Yes. 343 00:21:29,901 --> 00:21:31,621 The Saturday morning, 344 00:21:31,621 --> 00:21:37,981 he calls and tells me things with Jane were just awful. 345 00:21:37,981 --> 00:21:41,821 He sounded stressed and hassled. 346 00:21:41,821 --> 00:21:45,061 I told him if they got married, this is how it would be. 347 00:21:46,701 --> 00:21:49,781 She was just too hysterical. 348 00:21:49,781 --> 00:21:51,781 I asked him what had started the argument, 349 00:21:51,781 --> 00:21:54,861 and he said that she wanted to know if they were getting married, 350 00:21:54,861 --> 00:21:58,741 and he told her that she wasn't... 351 00:21:58,741 --> 00:22:02,141 stable enough to be the mother of his children. 352 00:22:02,141 --> 00:22:05,341 Was there one aspect of those rows 353 00:22:05,341 --> 00:22:07,941 which you did not tell the police about? 354 00:22:13,341 --> 00:22:15,021 On Saturday morning... 355 00:22:17,301 --> 00:22:20,621 ..he put a pillow over my head... 356 00:22:22,101 --> 00:22:23,581 ..and tied me to the bed. 357 00:22:25,221 --> 00:22:27,061 His full weight was on top of me. 358 00:22:33,101 --> 00:22:35,141 And he anally raped me. 359 00:22:35,141 --> 00:22:38,061 SHOCKED CHATTER FROM GALLERY 360 00:22:44,661 --> 00:22:47,301 DOUGLAS: 'I mean, they basically threw everything at it.' 361 00:22:47,301 --> 00:22:49,101 But to say... 362 00:22:49,101 --> 00:22:53,581 she was raped, you know, and-and like that, I mean... 363 00:22:53,581 --> 00:22:56,101 To be honest, it was just disgusting. 364 00:22:56,101 --> 00:22:57,461 Vile... 365 00:22:59,301 --> 00:23:01,981 ..despicable lies. 366 00:23:05,301 --> 00:23:07,141 I don't know. 367 00:23:07,141 --> 00:23:12,541 Miss Andrews, when you placed a knife by your bed, 368 00:23:12,541 --> 00:23:15,701 what exactly did you fear might happen? 369 00:23:15,701 --> 00:23:17,981 I was afraid that he was going to rape me again, 370 00:23:17,981 --> 00:23:19,501 like he had that morning. 371 00:23:19,501 --> 00:23:23,741 And when he began to attack you, you tried to ward him off. 372 00:23:23,741 --> 00:23:25,941 First with a blow from the cricket bat, 373 00:23:25,941 --> 00:23:28,381 and when that failed, you took up the knife. 374 00:23:30,661 --> 00:23:32,861 Yes. Did you, however, 375 00:23:32,861 --> 00:23:36,341 intend that Thomas Cressman be stabbed with it? 376 00:23:37,621 --> 00:23:39,101 No, not at all. 377 00:23:41,741 --> 00:23:42,941 We just... 378 00:23:44,021 --> 00:23:47,381 ..came together, and the next thing I knew, he was on top of me. 379 00:23:47,381 --> 00:23:50,461 And that's the point the knife went in? 380 00:23:55,581 --> 00:23:59,741 And at that stage, did you know how badly injured he was? 381 00:24:01,261 --> 00:24:02,461 No. 382 00:24:04,301 --> 00:24:06,021 I just panicked. 383 00:24:07,581 --> 00:24:11,901 I crawled out from underneath him and ran out of the room. 384 00:24:14,461 --> 00:24:16,741 I was terrified that he was going to come after me. 385 00:24:20,181 --> 00:24:23,461 So I took my dressing gown cord and tied the door. 386 00:24:25,101 --> 00:24:26,301 I couldn't think. 387 00:24:26,301 --> 00:24:29,101 So, one might say you were in a "grey mist"? 388 00:24:30,461 --> 00:24:31,781 Yes. 389 00:24:31,781 --> 00:24:37,061 And as you left the house, was there any sight or sound from Tom? 390 00:24:38,541 --> 00:24:39,581 No. 391 00:24:42,821 --> 00:24:44,141 No, there was nothing. 392 00:24:48,501 --> 00:24:50,661 That's when I realised he must be dead. 393 00:24:52,421 --> 00:24:53,821 ALEKSANDRA: 'Well, you see, 394 00:24:53,821 --> 00:24:56,341 'that's when her story really began to change. 395 00:24:56,341 --> 00:24:59,581 'This was quite different to the tale I'd been told.' 396 00:24:59,581 --> 00:25:02,901 And I realised that I had made a dreadful mistake. 397 00:25:04,901 --> 00:25:09,021 There are one or two things that are a bit... confusing. 398 00:25:10,341 --> 00:25:11,861 What do you mean? 399 00:25:14,061 --> 00:25:15,301 Well, you said yourself 400 00:25:15,301 --> 00:25:18,181 you'd told differing versions to different people. 401 00:25:19,941 --> 00:25:21,821 Yes, because I was confused. 402 00:25:23,541 --> 00:25:25,341 And scared. 403 00:25:25,341 --> 00:25:26,781 Right. 404 00:25:31,141 --> 00:25:34,061 It's just, you told me that you thought you'd given him a scratch. 405 00:25:35,421 --> 00:25:36,701 But then, today, 406 00:25:36,701 --> 00:25:40,181 you said you knew he was dead before you left the house. 407 00:25:48,061 --> 00:25:49,581 I know. I just... 408 00:25:51,061 --> 00:25:52,941 ..couldn't even admit it to myself. 409 00:25:59,621 --> 00:26:02,741 You know, Roger and I have been talking, 410 00:26:02,741 --> 00:26:04,461 and he feels, we both feel... 411 00:26:05,861 --> 00:26:09,461 ..that, actually, it might be more appropriate 412 00:26:09,461 --> 00:26:14,101 for you to move into a hotel for the remainder of the trial. 413 00:26:14,101 --> 00:26:15,701 Maybe tomorrow? 414 00:26:17,221 --> 00:26:18,301 I see. 415 00:26:18,301 --> 00:26:21,301 It's just simpler all round. 416 00:26:21,301 --> 00:26:22,821 Don't you think? 417 00:27:28,501 --> 00:27:30,821 Oh, hello. SHE GIGGLES 418 00:27:30,821 --> 00:27:32,461 You're doing a very good job. 419 00:27:36,541 --> 00:27:38,301 SHE SNIFFLES 420 00:28:15,501 --> 00:28:17,221 So, Miss Andrews. 421 00:28:18,621 --> 00:28:23,741 You left the house in the early hours of Sunday morning 422 00:28:23,741 --> 00:28:27,021 and spent the next two and a half days 423 00:28:27,021 --> 00:28:28,581 driving round the country. 424 00:28:28,581 --> 00:28:31,661 During which time, as far, as far as you knew... 425 00:28:33,061 --> 00:28:35,941 ..nobody had found Tom's body. 426 00:28:35,941 --> 00:28:37,421 Why not tell someone? 427 00:28:37,421 --> 00:28:39,141 Even as you were keying in messages 428 00:28:39,141 --> 00:28:40,981 and speaking to people on your phone, 429 00:28:40,981 --> 00:28:46,581 why did you not say this man was lying there, dying? 430 00:28:48,181 --> 00:28:50,581 I didn't want anybody to think I'd fled the scene. 431 00:28:52,941 --> 00:28:54,541 Left Tom to die in that room. 432 00:28:54,541 --> 00:28:58,581 Oh, so the messages were calculated to mislead? 433 00:28:58,581 --> 00:29:00,261 No. 434 00:29:02,581 --> 00:29:04,901 I know it's absurd. It doesn't make any sense. 435 00:29:04,901 --> 00:29:07,381 No, no, it-it makes perfect sense. 436 00:29:07,381 --> 00:29:10,781 This was no "grey mist", er, whatever that may be. 437 00:29:10,781 --> 00:29:13,101 Rather, you were deliberately attempting 438 00:29:13,101 --> 00:29:16,901 to mislead your friends and former husband. 439 00:29:16,901 --> 00:29:19,461 And now you've told this court that you'd been admitted 440 00:29:19,461 --> 00:29:22,941 to Charing Cross Hospital after falling down some stairs. 441 00:29:22,941 --> 00:29:24,981 Tommy pushed me down the stairs. I was very upset. 442 00:29:24,981 --> 00:29:26,701 But you never told that to any doctor, 443 00:29:26,701 --> 00:29:28,861 to any police officer, did you? 444 00:29:28,861 --> 00:29:30,901 Just as you never told anyone about the occasion 445 00:29:30,901 --> 00:29:35,501 you say you got a bruise on your head because he hit you. 446 00:29:35,501 --> 00:29:37,341 No. Because I was too ashamed. 447 00:29:37,341 --> 00:29:39,101 But when you're talking to the police, 448 00:29:39,101 --> 00:29:40,381 this is not a time for shame. 449 00:29:40,381 --> 00:29:41,621 Is it? 450 00:29:41,621 --> 00:29:43,781 I just wanted to get the interview over and done with. 451 00:29:43,781 --> 00:29:46,861 But what was the reason that you failed to mention something 452 00:29:46,861 --> 00:29:48,741 that you now rely on in this court? 453 00:29:48,741 --> 00:29:50,661 Namely, that earlier that day, 454 00:29:50,661 --> 00:29:54,541 he had had sexual intercourse with you by force? 455 00:29:55,861 --> 00:29:59,701 Because I was totally ashamed and embarrassed. 456 00:29:59,701 --> 00:30:03,021 You were seen three times by a woman doctor at the police station. 457 00:30:03,021 --> 00:30:04,421 It was a private examination. 458 00:30:04,421 --> 00:30:06,301 You could've drawn attention, if you wished, 459 00:30:06,301 --> 00:30:08,341 to anything that had happened to you that you felt 460 00:30:08,341 --> 00:30:10,581 might be relevant to the trouble that you were facing. 461 00:30:10,581 --> 00:30:13,181 But you did not draw anyone's attention to it, did you? 462 00:30:13,181 --> 00:30:15,341 I was too traumatised by the whole thing. 463 00:30:15,341 --> 00:30:18,181 Ah, well, you were in a fit state to be interviewed 464 00:30:18,181 --> 00:30:20,461 and to explain all you did to the police. 465 00:30:20,461 --> 00:30:22,141 Why not explain to the doctor, 466 00:30:22,141 --> 00:30:23,661 "I've been raped, 467 00:30:23,661 --> 00:30:27,541 "and there will be physical signs of that, if you have a look."? 468 00:30:27,541 --> 00:30:29,061 I physically could not. 469 00:30:29,061 --> 00:30:30,621 You didn't tell anyone about it 470 00:30:30,621 --> 00:30:34,301 because it's completely invented, that story. 471 00:30:34,301 --> 00:30:36,021 In fact, both stories about anal rape, 472 00:30:36,021 --> 00:30:38,501 in the morning and the alleged second attempt that evening, 473 00:30:38,501 --> 00:30:40,101 completely invented, are they not? 474 00:30:40,101 --> 00:30:41,581 No, not at all. 475 00:30:41,581 --> 00:30:43,061 Ever since your arrest, 476 00:30:43,061 --> 00:30:45,981 you have fabricated a succession of contradictory stories 477 00:30:45,981 --> 00:30:48,221 in a blatant attempt to escape blame 478 00:30:48,221 --> 00:30:50,501 for Thomas Cressman's death, have you not? 479 00:30:50,501 --> 00:30:51,621 No, that's not true. 480 00:30:51,621 --> 00:30:54,501 Even now, the evidence you've presented here in court 481 00:30:54,501 --> 00:30:56,181 is riddled with inconsistencies. 482 00:30:56,181 --> 00:30:58,741 You claim that Mr Cressman attacked you that morning, 483 00:30:58,741 --> 00:31:01,181 and, as a result, you left the house for several hours. 484 00:31:01,181 --> 00:31:02,501 But then you chose to return. 485 00:31:02,501 --> 00:31:04,621 You claim that you feared further sexual assault, 486 00:31:04,621 --> 00:31:07,301 yet in the next breath, you say you happily took off your clothes 487 00:31:07,301 --> 00:31:08,581 and got into bed beside him. 488 00:31:08,581 --> 00:31:09,941 Why would you do that? 489 00:31:12,261 --> 00:31:14,301 Tom wanted me to sleep in his bed. 490 00:31:16,421 --> 00:31:17,821 I couldn't say no. 491 00:31:17,821 --> 00:31:20,461 So, you are afraid for your safety, 492 00:31:20,461 --> 00:31:22,941 yet you left the bedroom multiple times, 493 00:31:22,941 --> 00:31:24,661 went up and down the stairs, 494 00:31:24,661 --> 00:31:27,941 first to fetch a bat, later to arm yourself with a knife, 495 00:31:27,941 --> 00:31:30,661 which means that at any point, you could've left that house again, 496 00:31:30,661 --> 00:31:31,861 but you chose not to. 497 00:31:31,861 --> 00:31:33,981 Now, that makes no sense, does it? 498 00:31:33,981 --> 00:31:35,661 I was afraid of what Tommy might do. 499 00:31:35,661 --> 00:31:40,021 Meanwhile, y-your description of the attack has changed. 500 00:31:40,021 --> 00:31:41,221 When talking to the police, 501 00:31:41,221 --> 00:31:43,421 you said that Mr Cressman said he was going to hurt you. 502 00:31:43,421 --> 00:31:45,581 However, as soon as you reach court, you're claiming 503 00:31:45,581 --> 00:31:47,621 he shouted that he was going to "fucking kill you". 504 00:31:47,621 --> 00:31:50,381 You claimed initially you thought you'd just given him "a scratch", 505 00:31:50,381 --> 00:31:52,141 but now you say you were so covered in blood 506 00:31:52,141 --> 00:31:54,141 that you assumed he must be dead. 507 00:31:54,141 --> 00:31:57,941 Not one word of it rings true. 508 00:32:00,821 --> 00:32:02,861 It's... hard to remember. 509 00:32:05,381 --> 00:32:07,861 Everything just happened so fast. 510 00:32:07,861 --> 00:32:09,341 Right. 511 00:32:09,341 --> 00:32:11,221 We earlier heard that 512 00:32:11,221 --> 00:32:13,941 Tom had arranged for you to see a psychiatrist 513 00:32:13,941 --> 00:32:16,341 to help with your, er, problems. 514 00:32:16,341 --> 00:32:18,581 What problems were they, again? 515 00:32:20,021 --> 00:32:21,141 Er, my child abuse. 516 00:32:21,141 --> 00:32:23,941 Oh, yeah. The child abuse you've now chosen to reveal in court. 517 00:32:23,941 --> 00:32:26,821 No, that's... And about which you refuse to disclose any details. 518 00:32:26,821 --> 00:32:29,061 I don't want to. Which is entirely your right. 519 00:32:29,061 --> 00:32:30,901 But it seems convenient, does it not, 520 00:32:30,901 --> 00:32:32,301 to present us with an allegation 521 00:32:32,301 --> 00:32:35,141 which has never been officially made, nor legally proven? 522 00:32:41,661 --> 00:32:43,621 Do you want a break? 523 00:32:48,621 --> 00:32:50,541 Ten minutes, members of the jury. 524 00:33:11,421 --> 00:33:13,301 GRAHAM-LLOYD: Jane, are you all right? 525 00:33:37,221 --> 00:33:38,581 Antibiotics. 526 00:33:41,221 --> 00:33:43,501 Doctor says it's just a low-grade infection. 527 00:33:45,781 --> 00:33:48,101 You must've been feeling poorly for days. 528 00:33:49,781 --> 00:33:51,021 A bit. 529 00:33:52,301 --> 00:33:53,701 Bless you. 530 00:33:53,701 --> 00:33:56,341 Us women just soldier on, don't we? 531 00:33:56,341 --> 00:33:57,781 We have to. 532 00:34:40,061 --> 00:34:42,421 DOOR OPENS 533 00:35:03,461 --> 00:35:05,661 Would the foreman of the jury please stand? 534 00:35:07,781 --> 00:35:10,381 Have you reached a verdict? Yes. 535 00:35:10,381 --> 00:35:12,021 On the count of murder, 536 00:35:12,021 --> 00:35:16,661 do you find the defendant, Jane Andrews, guilty or not guilty? 537 00:35:18,981 --> 00:35:20,021 Guilty. 538 00:35:20,021 --> 00:35:22,861 VOICES FADE 539 00:35:30,701 --> 00:35:34,941 I think she honestly thought she'd get away with it. 540 00:35:34,941 --> 00:35:37,461 CHATTER 541 00:35:37,461 --> 00:35:40,381 SOBBING: Oh, God. Oh, Tommy. 542 00:35:53,661 --> 00:35:55,221 Jane Andrews. 543 00:35:57,101 --> 00:35:58,901 In killing the man you loved, 544 00:35:58,901 --> 00:36:02,621 you ended his life and ruined your own. 545 00:36:04,381 --> 00:36:06,661 'It is evident that you made your attack on him 546 00:36:06,661 --> 00:36:11,181 'when you were consumed with anger and bitterness. 547 00:36:11,181 --> 00:36:14,861 'But nothing could justify what you did.' 548 00:36:14,861 --> 00:36:16,181 DOOR SLAMS 549 00:36:16,181 --> 00:36:20,381 'Even if you were feeling wronged and were emotionally vulnerable, 550 00:36:20,381 --> 00:36:23,341 'you were attacking an unarmed man 551 00:36:23,341 --> 00:36:26,221 'who had possibly been asleep only a few minutes 552 00:36:26,221 --> 00:36:28,381 'before you attacked him. 553 00:36:28,381 --> 00:36:31,901 'You then left him to die without remorse.' 554 00:36:31,901 --> 00:36:33,461 REPORTERS CLAMOUR 555 00:36:33,461 --> 00:36:37,261 'Therefore, as your counsel recognises, 556 00:36:37,261 --> 00:36:40,581 'there is only one sentence I can place upon you... 557 00:36:43,501 --> 00:36:45,661 '..and that is life imprisonment.' 558 00:36:51,381 --> 00:36:53,661 People don't believe her. But... 559 00:36:53,661 --> 00:36:55,981 that doesn't mean Jane isn't telling the truth. 560 00:36:59,421 --> 00:37:01,901 It just means people don't WANT to believe her. 561 00:37:01,901 --> 00:37:05,541 There's no excuse for what she did, 562 00:37:05,541 --> 00:37:08,061 and I know no-one wants to speak ill of the dead, 563 00:37:08,061 --> 00:37:10,301 but Tom wasn't an angel. 564 00:37:10,301 --> 00:37:13,061 And Janey wasn't a monster, either. 565 00:37:15,181 --> 00:37:21,061 The whole thing is just terribly, terribly sad. 566 00:37:21,061 --> 00:37:24,421 The fact is, she's a murderer. However you wanna look at it. 567 00:37:24,421 --> 00:37:25,621 She was a woman scorned, 568 00:37:25,621 --> 00:37:28,421 and she took Thomas Cressman's life in anger. 569 00:37:28,421 --> 00:37:30,221 And even that wasn't enough for her. 570 00:37:30,221 --> 00:37:32,621 She had to try and destroy his good name. 571 00:37:33,941 --> 00:37:36,061 But, you know, at the end of the day, 572 00:37:36,061 --> 00:37:38,341 we didn't let her get away with it. 573 00:37:39,941 --> 00:37:42,101 Any other personal items? 574 00:37:45,061 --> 00:37:48,261 Oh, no, you can keep that. Well, unless it's valuable. 575 00:37:49,581 --> 00:37:52,101 Er, no. 576 00:37:52,101 --> 00:37:53,941 It's just... 577 00:37:53,941 --> 00:37:56,981 it was a present from The Duchess of York, actually. 578 00:37:56,981 --> 00:37:59,461 No-one asked for your life story, love. 579 00:38:02,101 --> 00:38:03,381 GUARD: Follow me. 580 00:38:06,101 --> 00:38:08,141 LAUGHTER, CHATTER 581 00:38:13,981 --> 00:38:16,981 INMATE 1: Ey up, it's Fergie's bird! 582 00:38:16,981 --> 00:38:19,101 INMATE 2: Welcome home, Your Majesty. 583 00:38:19,101 --> 00:38:21,181 LAUGHTER, JEERS 584 00:38:21,181 --> 00:38:23,301 BANGING 585 00:38:24,381 --> 00:38:26,341 INMATE 3: All right, Your Ladyship? 586 00:38:26,341 --> 00:38:30,141 PRISONERS JEERING 587 00:38:36,301 --> 00:38:38,541 JEERS FADE 588 00:38:47,861 --> 00:38:50,381 MUFFLED BANGING 589 00:38:52,621 --> 00:38:54,821 So, how have you been this week? 590 00:38:57,061 --> 00:38:59,101 Pretty much the same. 591 00:38:59,101 --> 00:39:02,341 Jane, as we discussed last time, 592 00:39:02,341 --> 00:39:05,461 I think your earlier diagnosis of depression was correct. 593 00:39:07,061 --> 00:39:08,421 Right. 594 00:39:08,421 --> 00:39:11,421 But now that I'm getting to know you better, 595 00:39:11,421 --> 00:39:14,541 I think it possibly doesn't explain everything you're dealing with. 596 00:39:18,021 --> 00:39:21,381 Have you ever heard of borderline personality disorder? 597 00:39:24,381 --> 00:39:26,341 No, I don't think so. 598 00:39:27,501 --> 00:39:30,021 Well, a person with BPD 599 00:39:30,021 --> 00:39:33,301 often has a longstanding pattern of thoughts and feelings 600 00:39:33,301 --> 00:39:35,821 that probably began when they were very young. 601 00:39:35,821 --> 00:39:39,061 They experience certain recurrent impulses 602 00:39:39,061 --> 00:39:40,581 and ways of being in relationships 603 00:39:40,581 --> 00:39:43,221 which often cause them a lot of distress, 604 00:39:43,221 --> 00:39:46,501 and which often involve self-damaging behaviours. 605 00:39:46,501 --> 00:39:51,661 So, things like recurrent suicidal threats. 606 00:39:53,261 --> 00:39:55,381 Does any of that feel familiar to you? 607 00:39:57,941 --> 00:39:59,261 I don't know. 608 00:40:01,381 --> 00:40:02,541 Maybe. 609 00:40:03,701 --> 00:40:05,141 OK. 610 00:40:06,261 --> 00:40:10,221 Well, we often find that there are other common behaviours too. 611 00:40:10,221 --> 00:40:16,021 People with BPD feel deeply entrenched shame. 612 00:40:16,021 --> 00:40:19,021 So whenever they make mistakes or have weaknesses, 613 00:40:19,021 --> 00:40:22,701 they try very hard to avoid admitting it. 614 00:40:22,701 --> 00:40:27,421 And sometimes, that means they lie so they don't have to face it. 615 00:40:29,781 --> 00:40:30,821 Right. 616 00:40:32,381 --> 00:40:36,421 But that doesn't mean they're trying to deceive. 617 00:40:36,421 --> 00:40:40,781 But they're a way of coping when you're feeling a lot of pain. 618 00:40:40,781 --> 00:40:45,021 It's a bit like going out in the sun when you're already sunburnt. 619 00:40:45,021 --> 00:40:47,341 If you're already feeling emotionally raw, 620 00:40:47,341 --> 00:40:51,501 you can't begin to make healthy emotional connections. 621 00:40:56,661 --> 00:40:59,021 So I need to stay out of the sun? 622 00:40:59,021 --> 00:41:00,541 For now. 623 00:41:00,541 --> 00:41:02,141 Well, that shouldn't be a problem. 624 00:41:03,421 --> 00:41:05,381 Jane, with the right support, 625 00:41:05,381 --> 00:41:08,501 you can begin to learn to control your behavioural triggers. 626 00:41:09,741 --> 00:41:11,941 It'll take work, 627 00:41:11,941 --> 00:41:16,021 but I really think this could be a whole fresh start for you. 628 00:41:21,501 --> 00:41:24,501 JUNE: 'How are your sessions going with Dr Chaudhry?' 629 00:41:24,501 --> 00:41:26,101 Yeah, good. 630 00:41:26,101 --> 00:41:28,501 We're doing a lot of work on my triggers, 631 00:41:28,501 --> 00:41:31,021 identifying behavioural patterns, you know? 632 00:41:32,181 --> 00:41:35,501 Working through why I do the things that I do. 633 00:41:35,501 --> 00:41:37,301 I think it's really helping. 634 00:41:37,301 --> 00:41:38,701 And... 635 00:41:40,021 --> 00:41:42,901 ..has there been any more news about the appeal? 636 00:41:42,901 --> 00:41:46,541 Mum, I told you. They said it'd be ages before we hear. 637 00:41:47,821 --> 00:41:51,301 But it should make a difference, shouldn't it, this diagnosis? 638 00:41:51,301 --> 00:41:52,781 It changes everything, really. 639 00:41:54,221 --> 00:41:57,101 And the new solicitor thinks there are new avenues that we can explore. 640 00:41:58,701 --> 00:42:01,301 That's really good, Jane. Mm. 641 00:42:02,941 --> 00:42:05,061 'Can't believe it's Christmas already.' 642 00:42:07,741 --> 00:42:09,861 We had a card. 'Sorry?' 643 00:42:12,181 --> 00:42:16,181 We had a Christmas card from Mr and Mrs Cressman. 644 00:42:17,501 --> 00:42:19,741 'They said they knew it would be a difficult Christmas 645 00:42:19,741 --> 00:42:22,901 'and they sent their best wishes, and... 646 00:42:24,781 --> 00:42:25,861 'That was...' 647 00:42:27,501 --> 00:42:30,421 That... That was kind of them, wasn't it? 648 00:42:31,701 --> 00:42:32,821 I wondered if we... 649 00:42:32,821 --> 00:42:34,501 Listen, Mum, I've got to go soon. 650 00:42:34,501 --> 00:42:38,101 No, no, of course. Er, J... Er, Jane? 651 00:42:38,101 --> 00:42:41,661 'Jane, will we, erm, will we speak to you on Christmas Day?' 652 00:42:41,661 --> 00:42:44,181 'I hate to think of you all alone in that place.' 653 00:42:45,541 --> 00:42:48,061 Actually, I've made a new friend. 654 00:42:48,061 --> 00:42:49,301 'Oh.' 655 00:42:50,861 --> 00:42:52,581 Well, more of a pen pal. 656 00:43:08,221 --> 00:43:12,501 'The way she's been portrayed, as completely hard and unfeeling - 657 00:43:12,501 --> 00:43:14,221 'that's not Janey.' 658 00:43:14,221 --> 00:43:17,781 If anything, she feels things much too deeply. 659 00:43:19,501 --> 00:43:21,781 She had all these... 660 00:43:21,781 --> 00:43:25,261 lovely dreams of a great fairy tale romance, 661 00:43:25,261 --> 00:43:27,061 and when that fell apart, so did she. 662 00:43:28,341 --> 00:43:30,461 The fact is that woman... 663 00:43:31,741 --> 00:43:33,461 ..never showed any remorse. 664 00:43:35,741 --> 00:43:36,941 Not to me... 665 00:43:39,381 --> 00:43:40,861 ..or to my family. 666 00:43:41,981 --> 00:43:45,701 'So, if you ask me, they should never let her out. 667 00:43:45,701 --> 00:43:51,261 'And any man who gets involved with her... 668 00:43:52,741 --> 00:43:57,341 '..should be very, very careful.' 669 00:44:02,901 --> 00:44:05,781 I miss Tommy every single day. 670 00:44:09,021 --> 00:44:10,941 The sound of his voice. 671 00:44:12,301 --> 00:44:13,941 The way he laughed. 672 00:44:15,141 --> 00:44:17,341 SHE LAUGHS Silly jokes. 673 00:44:19,661 --> 00:44:23,341 He had this incredible gift for living. 674 00:44:28,181 --> 00:44:30,781 He was my... my beautiful boy. 675 00:44:33,221 --> 00:44:35,261 And now he's gone. 676 00:44:35,261 --> 00:44:38,381 SHE WHIMPERS, TAKES DEEP BREATH 677 00:44:43,341 --> 00:44:45,821 I just want to keep my brother's memory alive. 678 00:44:56,021 --> 00:44:57,741 Can we stop there? 679 00:44:58,821 --> 00:45:00,421 INTERVIEWER: Of course. 680 00:45:41,501 --> 00:45:43,541 Subtitles by accessibility@itv.com